Passing of my Mom

Today marks the 22 anniversary of the passing of my mom.  It's always such a wierd day for me.  I miss my mother and I loved her very much, but I always longed for the loving mom that was there for me, and she wasn't.  When she left me when I was only 14 years old, it tore a huge hole in my heart.  From that time on it was like she wasn't a part of my life because she was so far away.  Even through we wrote letters back and forth (see other blog) I still long to feel closer to her than I do in reality.  I guess it is because she was gone for so long during such an important time in my life. 

Twenty two years ago today she left this earth.  I am very grateful she is in a perfect place with no pain or suffering.  She had to endure so much on this earth - more than one should.  She lost her family; that is torture enough.

I wish my kids had the opportunity to know her.  As it is they have lost both their grandmothers.