Letting Go

I find it so amazing how one feeling can change into its opposite in the flip of a dime.

For example: A few months ago I couldn't wait - I mean I REALLY wanted Jessica to learn to drive. I wanted her to have the freedom to drive herself to friends' houses but even moreso (and selfishly) I wanted her to be able to drive to Seminary - then from Seminary to school - then from school home. How wonderful - that would free me up taking away one driving responsibility. YES!!!

Well, the day finally came that Jessica earned her Driver's License. All of the sudden panick flies into my body without a chance of releasing. I'm panicked. I don't want her to be alone on those roads with crazy drivers... what if they do something crazy - even worse - what if she does something crazy, or doesn't look, or ...

Oh, it's been a painful few days. At first Jessica didn't want to drive alone either (secretly I was so happy). First, we had her drive around the neighborhood alone, then over into the next neighborhood and around the area.

Talk about LETTING GO. This is such a test of faith and trust in your child. She came back without incedent (yeah).

(time goes by)

This week Jessica has driven every day to Seminary and then to school and then home. Five days no problems...yeah!

It's so hard to let something so special to you, something you love so much - go out of your control and let them go. (Heaven help me when she goes off to college...I'm going to need a case of tissue.)