Although this day was mostly fantastic - it had a very dark side too!
I was talking with Jessica about how happy I was that everyone seemed to be getting along. I expressed my apology again that Tate did not get to go to dinner with Robert, Devon and Sierra and I on the first night - it was just an oversight, and I felt terrible. I said I felt bad about other things that had happened in the past between Tate and me. Because of things that I had done in the past that were insensitive or upsetting to Tate, I didn't feel he and I had as good of a relationship as I would like. I didn't know if he would ever not see me as "that person" or "move on to greener pastures". At first Jessica understood and told me it was all okay. But after we got home from the water park, she expressed to me that she felt it was I that didn't like Tate. I can't even express how absolutely false this is! I was in shock. I didn't even know what to say. I always get him something when I get Jessica something (I didn't used to, but I have for quite some time now). I always ask about him, I think about him and pray for him and his family daily. I feel like I go out of my way to make sure Tate knows how grateful I am to have him in our family - he is so good to Jessica and Cayson! I literally adore Tate. He is so thoughtful and kind. I even wrote all of that in his last Father's Day card. I just can't believe this - so I asked her to explain. She said I don't listen to him and that I look at my phone while he's talking. I really don't know how I will even convince them. This is a horrible Disagreement that has just shattered my heart.
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